Tuesday, June 09, 2009

new station. new environment. new people. new happiness to be found. new problems to be had.

am trying to deal with it the best i can. when they're people around, the distractions prove to be a good companion. yet when i am singular, dwelling on the past seems to be the natural thing to do.

i miss the calm before the storm. why couldn't they wait 2 or 3 more months?

got to stay away from the blue for a while. this break shall serve as a good time to get away from it all.

jogging, soccer, gym, friends. got no time for skirt-chasing. they're more trouble than i can handle. haha!
 Friday, May 08, 2009

man i'm tired. burntout too.

need a break, maybe a short escape to somewhere, anywhere.
 Wednesday, April 22, 2009


'Ambivalence is a state of having simultaneous, conflicting feelings toward a person or thing. Stated another way, ambivalence is the experience of having thoughts and emotions of both positive and negative valence toward someone or something.'

fuck. what, do you expect me to just take it when a big decision such as this comes my way. you don't ask for our opinions, you disregard our feedback, you treat us as a statistic. damn, it really is true when they say that middle or upper management doesn't take the feelings of the "people-on-the-ground" into account.

i'm not happy. i'm sorry, i can't pretend. i'm too tired. only when i'm at work will i muster up some feeble attempt at nonchalance.

i just can't fucking accept it, alright.

i'm sorry. i've just become too attached.
 Sunday, April 19, 2009

ORD training over. immensely happy.

Played a soccer match today at clementi woods sec. Rematch against the same team last week. Gained a draw. Awesome performance from all my team-mates. insanely happy.

Injured my right knee during that match. Didn't blame anybody. Typical soccer injury. Got clipped while clearing the ball. I dropped like a rock after being hit. Felt like a taser to the knee.
not happy. not happy at all.

Someone cure my knee. Please!
 Thursday, April 16, 2009

fuck la. i can't get to sleep.

got ORD training tml at 0745 and yet i'm still awake.

fuck.
 Tuesday, April 14, 2009

went to JB in the morning today.

first to Angsana, for Dunkin Donuts. Found some very nice shorts and jeans. Ah well next time.

then to Singgah Selalu for lunch. Yum!

might be meeting the guys for Soccer later at night.

i guess that's how my life revolves now. If im not working, its usually these few things; gym, soccer, outings with friends. I'm pretty satisfied with how it's going. I don't really have free time to think about unnecessary things. The equation's all fixed and balanced (:

well, maybe it could fit one more thing? ..hmmm....no

still pretty bummed about not being able to go to KL. Hit the gut harder than i thought
 Friday, April 10, 2009

Good Friday!

off le. today, lunch at marche and a movie.

tomorrow. soccer match at bendemeer sec with the guys. ho-hum, hope my knees are healed by then.

cheers! (: