Tuesday, July 08, 2008

hi, my name is sha.

im just a medic. not really a paramedic. cause you see, a paramedic undergoes 4 ardous levels of training over a length of 2 years.

a medic, such as me, only goes through one level of training. technically speaking, i can be called a level-1 paramedic. however, i much prefer to be called a medic.

so angie, just call me a medic okie? (: i don't deserve to be called a paramedic. i highly respect those that are wearing that blue and white badge, and im not one of those wearing blue and white.

anyway, currently, i'm not really in the best of moods. even still, through all the bullshit that's happening recently at work, im worried about 3 women.

my mum.
angela.
.

i just hope that things will turn out the best for the 3 of them.

now is the part to worry about myself.

im sure that i might not do everything right. but im intensely confident that i didn't get everything wrong.

i will admit if i did something wrong. i don't want to jeopardize anyone else. i don't want to play "cover my ass" or "jilat buah" if it means that someone else will take the fall.

i somehow feel very guilty about the audit. i feel like i should have done more, could have done more. haiz.

i don't like to dissapoint. especially those who put alot of faith in me. i don't want to do wrong, as im afraid my mistakes will cause other people close to me problems.

hi, my name is sha.

and i am afraid