Wednesday, January 02, 2008

just came back from sending my friends off. the feeling is rather heavy, when you imagine yourself to be with them, instead of bidding them goodbye and see you later.

it's the new year.

HMLS ( Hazardous Materials Life Support ) is on thursday.
Final Theory Test is on friday.
Final PAM ( Patient Assessment Model ) Practical Test is next wednesday.
Final Exercise is next thursday.

POP is next friday.

it's 2008.

for the most part, 2007 has been intensely unbelievable. it's the last few weeks that havent really been nice. some is because of my own dumb fault, some is just cos of pure dumb bad luck.

for my MOC problems, its the last stretch of the course. it still hurts that i didnt get selected, but theres still 4 awards that are up for grabs. Best in theory. Best in prac. Best trainee. Most Improved trainee. i know that i won't get most improved, cos one of my good friends will get that. i really hope he does. his transformation is amazing. in best trainee, i think it's a longshot, but i still pray. best in practical, i dun think i will get that. there are far better people in my class. best in theory, i shall not lie to myself. i want that very badly. i think i have a fair shot. will ace my final theory test.

but ultimately, i wish that my good buddy yasin will POP with me. if i had to choose between him and that award, i'd choose him.

secondly, the broken chinaware. i feel sad for my mum, so for my next pay im going to get her another new set. the least i could do for someone who's been there for me for 20 years without fail, and who makes breakfast for me everyday.

about my teddy bears, all broke except for one. at least i still have him. maybe i could start a new collection.

thirdly, my knee. truth be told, it's not getting any better. cos it's not really a good time to get injured, when you're in NS. i told marlon that i may want to go for surgery at the end of the year, when i have enough cash. so for the time being, im just going to bear with it

lastly, that problem. i won't ever be that stupid again. ever

Sha


I never saw a wild thing,
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough,
without ever having felt sorry for itself.