Monday, December 31, 2007
angina pectoris
i give up.
i just can't take it anymore.
i haven't yet dealt and tried to solve all the problems i'm currently facing, and yet another has to happened.
little brother was searching for batteries in mum's china cabinet. unfortunately one section fell. all of my mum's precious china, her glasses and cutlery and plates broke and shattered. my precious ceramic musical teddy bear collection also shattered. i only have one left, the musical clarinet teddy bear.
when mum saw what happened, she panicked cos the sound was very frightening. but when she saw that little brother was ok, but her chinaware broke, she immediately cried. when i saw my teddy bears broke, i went straight into the toilet and laughed and cried. i didn't know why i laughed, but all i knew was that, at that point, i gave up.
i cannot take it anymore. i can't solve one problem, and yet another has come. im shattered, just like my bears.
im tired of struggling. i want to make things right, but i am afraid.
but right now, all i know is that, i give up.
leave me alone.
i give up.
i just can't take it anymore.
i haven't yet dealt and tried to solve all the problems i'm currently facing, and yet another has to happened.
little brother was searching for batteries in mum's china cabinet. unfortunately one section fell. all of my mum's precious china, her glasses and cutlery and plates broke and shattered. my precious ceramic musical teddy bear collection also shattered. i only have one left, the musical clarinet teddy bear.
when mum saw what happened, she panicked cos the sound was very frightening. but when she saw that little brother was ok, but her chinaware broke, she immediately cried. when i saw my teddy bears broke, i went straight into the toilet and laughed and cried. i didn't know why i laughed, but all i knew was that, at that point, i gave up.
i cannot take it anymore. i can't solve one problem, and yet another has come. im shattered, just like my bears.
im tired of struggling. i want to make things right, but i am afraid.
but right now, all i know is that, i give up.
leave me alone.