Sunday, October 21, 2007
sunday
in camp, one of my buddies would play this song again and again:

avril lavigne's "when you're gone". the last time i heard it, i felt it was a very nice song with nice lyrics.. i would listen to it again and again.. but then it just sort of gave way to newer nicer songs..

but recently, this song seems to be having some sort of mini comeback to me.

i miss everyone so much. when i booked out on friday and heard that xt was at jurong point, i rushed down like crazy just to see and chat with her for a while. haha. when i met wei jian on the bus to jurong point (his home team academy is a few bus stops from my civil defence academy) and he told me that he's going to go back to school, i rushed down to school to meet kelly, angela cindy, edmund and the rest even though i was damn tired. and i didn't get to buy my zinger cos i was in such a rush to see them. zingers i can get anytime, true friends you can get only once in a while.

reached school, saw kelly, cindy, angela, edmund, lawrence, jason, rohaizad, siewling, and jennifer, who even gave me a hug when i was going back home. thanks jenn! haha. hugs are nice.. lol

when u go in, things will change. you tend to appreciate and identify the more important things in life.

what keeps me going is my friends. i miss them so much. getting a message while im in there is like getting strength to face the day and just, strength to survive the day with a smile.

hearing their voices, seeing them in person. god, its such an awesome feeling. just seeing them, realising that there's a real person behind the msges that they send. i cannot elaborate that enough

i seriously miss them so very much.

i miss playing soccer with my brothers.

i miss having lunches and dinners with my friends.

i miss buying waffles and donuts and whatnots for my friends and loved ones.

i miss having nice long chats.

i miss not having to rush.

i miss being a civilian.

i miss being able to wake up any time you want.

i miss going out with my friends, going to topman or gap to try out new clothes, and complaining about not being able to find the perfect cardigan.

i miss the times where i didn't have to miss anything or anyone.

tired. but like they told me, when you're tired. smile.