Wednesday, July 11, 2007
i wanna break every clock, the hands of time can never move again
Tonight, me and weiyou were chatting on MSN. It felt different. Usually, we'd be stabbing each other like nobody's business.

But tonight just felt different, wrong, heavy. He was telling me that he will find it hard not to cry. I was telling him that just by chatting with him, i nearly cried.

But we both agreed, that if we ever were to cry, it would be after the race. I wouldn't be ashamed of crying in front of them. I would give all of them a hug, and cry.

It's so hard tonight. Please give me, and more importantly them, the energy to face tonight and tomorrow with strength.

Grant us the willpower to not let our tears fall. Not tonight.

Why did fate let them go first and leave me behind?