Sunday, February 11, 2007
so sorrie
first of all, im so so sorry for not updating my blog for such a very long time.. to that, i apologize, but i have a very valid reason for not doing so.. not exams, not papers, quizzes or any of the like... its' fear..

i didn't post anything on my blog due to fear.. you see, when u post something on a blog, its' an entry on something that happened in the past, or something that happened recently..and i was scared of doing that.. i was scared with time, or more to the point, scared of the changes that come with time..

the exams are over, and im quite happy with the papers. some i didnt do very well, others, well, i hope to do well..

but with the ending of exams, come the fact that, it's over... poly life is over.. no more classes,lectures,tutorials,practicals and the like.. i don't really miss that.. i miss the people more..

the last exam we had..which was, er.. elastomers and biomedical materials..i almost didnt want it to end.. i almost hesitated going out of that class.. but time doesnt hesitate does it? it just, moves along..not caring how much im willing it to stop, turn back..

after the papers, my class 3B01 and the 02's went to another room to watch a movie together..it was a clip of pictures made beautifully to remind us of things that have past.. to tell the truth, during those moments, i regretted not going to the buddy chalet and other stuff..it was hard, yeah..but..it's past..

you can't change the wind, but you can set the sails..

then after that, met mei, ( if you're reading, ur haircut is nice la, not at all like a boy lor )..then off we went, one big group to bugis..to just unwind and stuff.. it was great, joking with them and all, and just chatting and catching up on times.. talking with jie and mei rocked.. Sputtering!!! haha..

on a more serious note, thanks jie.. if i didn't talk to you about it, i don't think i would have told my mum about it.. you know me, i prefer to keep this things to myself.. don't worry ya, i'll be fine =)

right now, in my mind, is this one saying, said by surprisingly, wei you..lol..almost most of the the time, he talks crap, hehe, but for once, i got stunned when he said, " i'd rather regret things i did, than things i didn't do ".. deep..scary huh.. i got alot of things i didn't do..some more than others...some i buried deep, some i filtered *wink*..

some days i don't want to wake up, cos there won't be anything routine anymore..no msgs stating class has been cancelled, or whether i did my formal reports and stuff...

but, in all this sadness, i still do wake up..why? because i know that the SHF members wake up, my soccer buddies wake up, my 1st year friends wake up, my big sister wakes up, my little sisters wake up, and they also face the same uncertainty that i face =) if they can do it, so can i. i can't, or more specifically, i won't let sadness envelope me totally..

if you're reading this, it means that in some way, u know me, and i know you.. i just want you to know that, you give me strength to face the days that come, and shall soon pass to make for another day.. and i thank you for that..

sincerely yours,

sha