Tuesday, February 27, 2007
hmm
today was a very eventful day..

hmm, came school at around 12 plus, cos i was warned to not be late.. Hark! look who's talking, in the end, i early lor..lol.. then went to club to slack a while, saw the GLs hard at work.. it's nice seeing them.. got scolded cos i was yawning too much, hehe..

then met up wit satyish,weiyou and marlon, headed off to the gym, for only 20 minutes, cos had to rush for interview at parkway parade.. hopefully can work at Vivo the Giant. haha..

after that, met up with ben, jun xiang, salleh, weizhong and off we headed to orchard cineleisure to catch "Norbit".. honestly, it was a good movie, but sometimes i couldn't catch what the heck they were saying, haha.. How You Doin!

honestly, in these 2 to 3 weeks, since after the zoo event, been going to orchard a hell lot.. lol.

~ when you're far from me, i wish, from the bottom of my heart, for you to magically appear, right in front of my eyes, at that exact moment when i want you to. to be able to see your eyes looking back into mine. to be able to touch the warmth of your cheek with the back of my hand, and to push that loose strand of hair behind your ear, so i can properly see you. to hear your voice say my name. to see your lips crinkle into a smile. that's what i wish for. but when you really are right there in front of me, i feel like running away; to not get so close. you are too overpowering im afraid to lose you. you are too intoxicating im afraid i can't get enough of you.

chey, nice arh.. not that it means anything of course.. been watching hana kimi, n i think all that sappy stuff is starting to rub on me..
 Monday, February 26, 2007
haha
i learnt how to play mahjong today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol, it was awesome la.. had some of the best fun in ages.. =)

thankz alot..shhhhhhhhhh

haha.. funny la.. had to remember the chinese characters from 1 to 10.. haha

on another note, been purposely sleeping late past few days.. think its gonna be a habit... just don't want to sleep la.. myabe im thinking too much, so that's why sleep so late, hehe..

wee! gonna go out soon!

haha, can't wait..

 Friday, February 23, 2007
hmm
thursday, went to play soccer with the usual guys.. =)

was actually planned at 1pm, but for anybody who knows us, 1pm means 2pm la, puhahaha.. so there was this big gang, almost everybody of the 3rd yr cohort (haiz) of the CLS soccer team and everyone else went to the futsal court to play..

the weather was, uber hot..or in our terms, f**king hot!!! that phrase was uttered almost every few minutes..

i miss playing soccer, and the soccer match was a welcome distraction from alot of stuff..hmm.. but still haven't play field yet lor.. wa liao! how long must wait.. just ask the SB guys to have a friendly la, in a relative manner of speaking.. cos there's no "friendliness" in a friendly, haha..

after soccer, went woth a few of the guys to orchard and just chilled, walked around the heeren, ck tangs, cos ben wanted to see some stuff that he could buy with his voucher? saw some puma shoes, quite nice de..

friday, went to gym with some of the guys. honestly, nowadays i like going to the gym.. all the pent up feelings you have, just let it all out. Huat ah!!!!! =)

ouh yeah, and with the collected sense of humor, im sure any one of us is gonna get killed while using the equipment, cos we make each other laugh like crazy.

anyways, i can safely say, without being arrogant or anything, that even makciks i don't know, who pass by me on their to IMM, say that i'm handsome, puhahahahah!!!!!!!! =p i guess it's due to the gym, to soccer, and to pre-NS jitters (haiz)

these 2 days that i went back to school, saw so many familiar faces lo..saw kelly, and was glad that she's ok. saw lao mei too, lol.. saw the rest of the soccer dudes and crapped with them.. honestly, i miss them alot (haiz) going back to school was an ambivalent experience, both happy and sad (haiz)

it's nice to get out of the house once in a while.. too long cooped up in your room, in fron of your comp, and you might suffer from depression..lol

the days are bearable,
the nights are horrible
with so many thoughts going through my head,
i haven't had an early march to bed

chey =) my first poem in ages..hahahaiz..

~made 4 rights
 Wednesday, February 21, 2007
shit!
shit!

i was going through some blogs of my friends, namely the SHFs' and sitis', and suddenly, WHAM!!!! i suddenly felt so sad cos school ended.. haiz... last time, when school just ended, i felt terrible, but got over it le.. but now, haiz... suddenly came back.. suddenly feeling so down de..

i miss CLS soccer team!
i miss my FYP gang!
i miss the SHF!
i miss STRZ!

sometimes i think i won't be able to handle the future.

i think a combination of going through those blogs and hearing the song on jie's blog ( which is a damn nice song, btw, very meaningful ) might have triggered something...

haiz

crap! hate this feeling! hate feeling sad and defeated!

*shakes head*

~help me get out of this circle
argh!
argh!!!! bored as hell..

well, i've been sitting my arse in front of the tv, watching all the nice shows.. haha.. esp "hana kimi".. thats a nice show. i esp like the " yingkai golden right foot ".. he's uber funny la, and since he seems to like ella, who dresses up as a guy, he therefore thinks that he's gay..puhahaha..

ella is, well, damn cute!!! OMG!!! especially during close ups..

also, some shows that were very nice

1. Sepet. about a chinese guy liking a malay girl.
2. Gubra. Sepet part 2.
3. Hana Kimi CNY special. though i don't understand a single word of what they're saying.
4. Spongebob Squarepants.
5. Embun.
6. Aisha 50 sen. sad show.. my mum and lil sister cried.
7. Champions League Matches. =)

also, been going down to jog and exercise and also shoot some hoops.. which is a surprise as i haven't played basketball, alone, since i was in primary school and living in bukit batok, haha..

also, completed the first season of FM07 with Newcastle.. Champions League, here i come!!! also, Michael Owen is back from injury..so my strikeforce is up and running

hope that in these coming days, i get to go out.. to play soccer, play pool, watch a movie, eat out, go open house? hehe =)

anyway.. happy hols
 Saturday, February 17, 2007
haiz
its 414am in the morning, and i just stopped playing FM07.. kinda to serve as a distraction la, considering the many thoughts that is muddling up my mind right now..

heard angela,kelly and the rest of the GL's had a rough day.. nvm guys/gals..chin up yeah? go go jiayou! u all can do it de.. =)

went to watch ghostrider too..hmm, not that great a movie i suppose..everything seemed so fastforwarded and the enemies he fought are so weak sia...lol..but i do love the bike, and his attitude.. the rilek-one-corner attitude la, kekeke..

then went to drop by at vivo to say hi to jie and she how she was.. haha.. then met victor also.. bloody hell, he seems to have so many lobangs for work that he could be spongebob i guess, puahaha.. sorry, wrong metaphor..

haiz..anyways.. good morning.. =) now i'm going to bed..

p.s, to zita.. if ur reading this entry, all of us here at Singapore are going to miss u de.. i'm sorry i cudn't make it to see u goin off, but my thoughts and prayers are with you =) all the best ya, do come back, once in a while
 Thursday, February 15, 2007
bored
u know im bored when i start to have 3 posts per day, haha..Diao!

was blog hopping, see..and eventually came to marlon's blog..the chinese song v.nice de, but i can't understand the lyrics, abit2 can lah, but not enough to really enjoy the song..

but to tell the truth, im quite happy with how much chinese i can understand now..haha..can actually understand some conversations, when my mostly chinese buddies speak..haha.. but i still can't grasp the concept of numbers, amounts, and time.. very, "men", aka confusing? lol..

had a chat with jie just now.. i could finally let it all out la..if not, in the words of lao mei, "scared the lava want to explode", lol.. Chibabom!!!!!!!

haiz, life is easy, its' just the people that mess the whole shit up...
du du du du duru du
Do watch this misheard lyrics music video, its super funny, wahaha



I am an arms dealer
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And don't really care which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That's just the business I'm in

This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race
I'm not a shoulder to cry on
But, I digress

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate [x2]

I wrote the gospel on giving up
(You look pretty sinking)
But the real bombshells have already sunk
(Prima-donnas of the gutter)
At night we're painting your trash gold while you sleep
Crashing not like hips or cars,
No, more like parties

This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race
Bandwagon's full
Please, catch another

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate [x2]

All the boys who the dance floor didn't love
And all the girls whose lips couldn't move fast enough
Sing, until your lungs give out

This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race(Now you)
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race(Wear out the groove)
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race(Sing out loud)
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race(Oh, oh)
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate [x2]
hmm
hey, just came back from JAE at school.. it was, in the most nicest way possible, boring..haha.. met jie and geraldine at dover at around 10plus, then off we headed to t1a, which was where the thing was held. the turnout was quite, er, sparse, so we ended up chatting with the teachers and stuff..

anyway, since it's v-day, i'd like to wish jie,lao mei,kel sis,ger and DD a happy v-day!! =) hope you liked my gift..

ok, on monday, went back to school to play soccer.. at first thought cancelled lah, cos it was raining like crazy, but then the guys all settled to play at the indoor badminton court on top of fc3, "old".. very funny la, 16 guys, so it was 8 v 8.. then the place, however big, still seemed small..

it was really chaos la, you really couldn't even hold onto the ball for a few moments, cos then the other team ppl, 2 or 3 at one time, chiong and rush you..lol..i think everybody got some injuries..but it was a hell lot of fun..hope friday they play..long time nvr play field sia... my boot still so clean..

then, on tuesday, which was ytd, went to the ZOO!!!!!!!!! it was uber awesome lah.. damn fun also..

got teased in the bus alot.. i mean.. i can take some of the teases, im not that sensitive, but when the teases seem to be insulting my sis, or ppl i care about,then that's fair time for u to stop. everybody has their certain level of tolerance, and ytd, u nearly crossed the line..nearly

anyway, on a brighter note, i got to see the polar bears, which were just lazing in their enclosure.. they're huge, about 3m? then saw crocodiles..they're freaking larger than what the tv show la.. about the size of a dor liddat? then got to see horses, donkeys, otters, penguins, marmocets, gorals, kangaroos, baboons,rhinos,giraffes,sheep,cows.. but my most ulti fav was "carlos"

he's a seal, but then yeah, he has a human girlfriend ( female zookeeper ), and still can anyhow kiss any girl that he likes la..lucky bugger..lol

if jon sends me the pics fast, i'll post em here..

after the event, i was thinking of being a zookeeper, cos it seems fun..ya, its very hard work and all, but to be able to work with animals, that'll be cool..

after the whole zoo event thingy, went with the soccer buddies to suntec and marina. they wanted to buy something using the voucher they got.. then they were talking about turtles making love..cos they saw the tortoises getting "it" on mah.. they were saying, like;

male turtle: *moan*
female turtle: ....

5 seconds later

male turtle: *moan*
female turtle: ....

so it seemed that the male was, enjoying it a bit more.. me and tze wei were laughing like crazy, imitating the sound, and he was like, impersonating ming wei..puhahaha

well, that's it for now..so, Happy Valentine's Day!!!
 Tuesday, February 13, 2007
ZOOO
ahahaha, tmr im goin to the ZOO!!!!!!!

well, im going to participate in CLS club's ZOO amazing race..which will be hosted by allan wu..

ok, maybe i was kidding about the allan wu part, but yeah, i am going to the zoo

tmr im going to see inuka the polar bear, and her/his? small polar children bears..haha.. cubs..

and im going to visit my relative ahmeng,ahseng,ahbeng,ah ah,ahaha,ah yelah tu,ah but then..and all the other "ah" family..

=)

but then since my soccer buddies are going too, i guess we'll end up being the monkeys ourselves..and making a fool out of one another.. ah heck..

long time nvr go to the zoo le.. so i guess its nice.. will have soccer buddies there, cls friends like nasir and pals, and sisters there; kel and angela..haha

on a more serious note..

Yanti,im very sorry that someone put that "thing" into ur bag. i didn't know until siti told me. very sorry. i apologize for my intelligently-challenged friend.. i still dunno who he is, but i have my suspicions..
 Monday, February 12, 2007
v-day

since v-day is coming up, and love seems to be in the air *rolls eyes*..lol.. i decided to nick some quote that are related to love..

i like these sentences, cos they seem to be very short, but carry so much meaning.. =)

these lines come from movies ya, btw.

“It was the greatest feeling I ever had. Followed abruptly by the worst feeling I ever had.” -- Blow

yup, felt like that a few times..

"I am trying to free your mind. But I can only show you the door. You're the one that has to walk through it." -- The Matrix

funny huh, how the journey of a million miles of love begins with just a single brave step?

"You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how." -- Gone With the Wind

hmm, never got a real chance to try, puhaha.

"If he dies...all that is life to me will die with him." -- The Village

wow.. something as inconsequential as love can mean so much to some.

“I know that she is good and strong and deserves all the love this world has to give. Can’t you see that, how wonderful, how special she is?” -- A Walk in the Clouds

beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..

"Nobody ever lies about being lonely.” -- From Here to Eternity

you don't have to lie about that, or rather, there's no way you can lie about it

“Only you, you’re the only thing I’ll see forever. In my eyes, in my words, and in everything I do.” -- West Side Story

p.s, this is a nice show to watch with ur bf/gf/"bfgf".whatever.. its a rougher romeo and juliet

"I want to go out with her, okay? I’d like her to be my girlfriend. There. I said it." -- About A Boy

if only things could be that simple..

"It is a strange fate that we should suffer so much fear and doubt over so small a thing." -- Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring

uhuh

"Because I love her." -- Beauty and the Beast

one of the most earliest love stories i watched, as a kid..i remembered being scared of the beast..haha..remember the scene where the rose was gonna die, that was touching

"There are only four questions of value in life. What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same: only love.” -- Don Juan DeMarco


"A life without love is no life at all." -- Ever After

true, true..

"The hardest part of love isn't loving someone, but having the courage to let them love you back." -- The Wedding Date

or more specifically, admitting that you love them..

“So you lie to yourself to be happy. There’s nothing wrong with that. We all do it.” -- Memento

it's not wrong to lie about something to make things right

“I will have poetry in my life. And adventure. And love. Love above all.” -- Shakespeare in Love

“I suppose fighting for love makes more sense than all the rest.” -- Troy

it is that important, eh?

“He doesn’t make sense, I don’t make sense; together we make sense.” -- Untamed Heart

thats sweet, honestly

“Let me tell you something, my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane.” -- The Shawshank Redemption

tell me about it....

“I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, and the thing is, I love you.” -- When Harry Met Sally

"There is so much to say...I cannot find the words. Except for these: I love you." -- Somewhere in Time

those 3 words, are said too much, but not enough =)

“I'm beginning to think that maybe it's not just how much you love someone. Maybe what matters is who you are when you're with them.” -- The Accidental Tourist

yeah, no pretences..

“Tell you what. The truth is...sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it.” -- Brokeback Mountain

we've all been there before

“You cannot find true love where it does not truly exist, and you cannot hide it where it truly does.” -- Kissing a Fool

mmhmm

“If he loved you with all the power of his soul for a whole lifetime, he couldn’t love you as much as I do in a single day.” -- Wuthering Heights

3rd most fav quote.

"I’d...I’d ride through worse than that if I could just hear your voice telling me that I might at least have some chance to win you.” -- Emma

2nd most fav.

“Life has ended for me...How can you stand beside me and pretend not to remember? Not to know that my heart is breaking for you?” -- Wuthering Heights

ah, the penultimate saying..
 Sunday, February 11, 2007
so sorrie
first of all, im so so sorry for not updating my blog for such a very long time.. to that, i apologize, but i have a very valid reason for not doing so.. not exams, not papers, quizzes or any of the like... its' fear..

i didn't post anything on my blog due to fear.. you see, when u post something on a blog, its' an entry on something that happened in the past, or something that happened recently..and i was scared of doing that.. i was scared with time, or more to the point, scared of the changes that come with time..

the exams are over, and im quite happy with the papers. some i didnt do very well, others, well, i hope to do well..

but with the ending of exams, come the fact that, it's over... poly life is over.. no more classes,lectures,tutorials,practicals and the like.. i don't really miss that.. i miss the people more..

the last exam we had..which was, er.. elastomers and biomedical materials..i almost didnt want it to end.. i almost hesitated going out of that class.. but time doesnt hesitate does it? it just, moves along..not caring how much im willing it to stop, turn back..

after the papers, my class 3B01 and the 02's went to another room to watch a movie together..it was a clip of pictures made beautifully to remind us of things that have past.. to tell the truth, during those moments, i regretted not going to the buddy chalet and other stuff..it was hard, yeah..but..it's past..

you can't change the wind, but you can set the sails..

then after that, met mei, ( if you're reading, ur haircut is nice la, not at all like a boy lor )..then off we went, one big group to bugis..to just unwind and stuff.. it was great, joking with them and all, and just chatting and catching up on times.. talking with jie and mei rocked.. Sputtering!!! haha..

on a more serious note, thanks jie.. if i didn't talk to you about it, i don't think i would have told my mum about it.. you know me, i prefer to keep this things to myself.. don't worry ya, i'll be fine =)

right now, in my mind, is this one saying, said by surprisingly, wei you..lol..almost most of the the time, he talks crap, hehe, but for once, i got stunned when he said, " i'd rather regret things i did, than things i didn't do ".. deep..scary huh.. i got alot of things i didn't do..some more than others...some i buried deep, some i filtered *wink*..

some days i don't want to wake up, cos there won't be anything routine anymore..no msgs stating class has been cancelled, or whether i did my formal reports and stuff...

but, in all this sadness, i still do wake up..why? because i know that the SHF members wake up, my soccer buddies wake up, my 1st year friends wake up, my big sister wakes up, my little sisters wake up, and they also face the same uncertainty that i face =) if they can do it, so can i. i can't, or more specifically, i won't let sadness envelope me totally..

if you're reading this, it means that in some way, u know me, and i know you.. i just want you to know that, you give me strength to face the days that come, and shall soon pass to make for another day.. and i thank you for that..

sincerely yours,

sha