Friday, October 20, 2006
stressed
stressed.. haiz...why? hmmm,

1. FYP.. i have to finish a draft report by this friday.. kana rushed here and there by our lecturer in charge, who never seems to be there when we need him. haiz, throughout the whole course of my fyp, never have i seen him in the fyp lab, helping us or just giving us a morale booster when we needed it. haiz, phonecalls also never pick up.. if not for serene and geraldine, i would given up a long time ago.. haiz..

2. i still am not fully okay. haiz.. i thank god that i don't have to visit the hospital again after the last time i've been there.. negative memories.. dun wan.... everyday i feel so tired ah, due to the meds i take.. so i've been very quiet and moody throughout these few weeks.. v v v v.sori.. haiz...

3. soccer training.. haiz.. its just that sometimes, damn sian 1/2 ah... haiz.. not that i hate football or anything, its just that sometimes, we're tired sia.. i am honored that im the keeper ah.. really am.. but sometimes, i just need a break without handling some form of responsibility...

nowadays, im finding it very hard to smile at times, lolx.. not that i dun want to , its just that... aiyah, too worried about so many things... but, if u can laugh, or smile, you ain't defeated yet.. soo.. =]

p.s, i want to learn mandarin so damn bad... cantonese, hokkien, teochew, aniting... i wish that i can be able to chat with my loved ones (SHF) and be able to understand..


I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

"you give me something - james morrison"