Sunday, July 23, 2006
haiz
im emotionally drained...and im also worried about my brother, Marlon..

bro, i know we're both in the same boat..everytime you're quiet, i know what you're thinking..cos i think of the same things too..

..our regrets...

..the things we could have/should have done, but we didn't..

...our memories, both joyful and painful...

..our loves...

i know...cos im feeling it also...

everytime im not doing anything, i fall into sadness, you know? ...im tired, and i know you are..

and i also hate pretending..i dun want to smile when im not happy..But i have to, we have to...

you want to cry? same here..the times i controlled last week took all of my strength..only god knows...

we'll work through it together yeah?...i'll slowly pick up the pieces..while i help pick yours up too..we're brothers..and if we don't have that, then we're screwed..coz, who do we have now?..haiz...

and also remember one thing man..when you're down, fall back on faith..i have my religion, you have yours..fall back on that..it will give you strength...

because for me, im already trying to accept that this is all god's work..testing me..testing my faith and trust..and slowly, im accepting that..tears will drop, yes..but it will cleanse me..and i pray for patience and peace..

and besides..it really isnt that bad being single huh..yeah i know, im just saying that..haiz...

Be strong kay man..i'll lend you my strength..

and also, we can gain happiness by seeing our friends in joy..like powerboi and dd..

this is all just a test...ya allah, tolong berikan ku kesabaran dan ketabahan untuk menghadapi cabaranMu ini...

also..to the person that is spreading news about me..if you're reading this by any chance..i don't care about what you spread anymore..and i am tired of trying to be angry at you..its between you and your conscience..im just going to go on living..