Friday, July 07, 2006
haiz
its 1am..and i can't sleep..its been like that since i returned from the chalet..

been thinking..a lot..even my mum noticed

"never sleep?" (belum tdo?)

"can't sleep.." (tak ah, tak leh tdo)

"why?" (kenapa?)

"....thinking.....loads of work" (ada ah benda..bnyk benda nak fikir)

i decided...if life made me take this path...i will take it..

i made myself fall down..i alone chose this path..i alone shall bear the responsibility and the burden that comes with it..i made myself fall into this pit of uncertainty and hopeful skepticism.

i have been on this path time and again..i will be numb,cold,unflinching..i will not show any trace of weakness..

i promise you, i will drag myself out..in tears, bleeding, hurt, in pain..what comes i shall face it..i will not cower in pain..i will not be reduced to helplessness..what doesnt kill me, shall and will make me stronger..i will be stronger...i will drag myself out..

even if i have to do it alone................i will......