Friday, June 30, 2006
eyy..
eyy..its like, freaking 0304 am in the freaking morning..and what the heck am i doing?
well, just (honestly), just finished my MCFA report..while listening to Shayne's Ward, "No Promises"..for the uber-umpteenth time..tralalalalalalala...
i think now is a safe time to sleep, cos even owls like DD are already asleep..gdnite btw..lol..bwek!..
so, i can sleep without worrying that much.hahaha..good night, or issit good morning? ahh...its irrelevant..as long as aku ngorok tak berliur, da okie dah..hehehehehe
after going to friendster, my heart seems troubled...it is troubled..why did i have to let my old feelings resurface again?? can i not find peace in my heart? i don't think i can take it any longer..i always say that..but somehow i take it some more..and again.and again...a vicious cycle it seems..and im the victim..is love just a sick parody of pain? instead of being loved and not being hurt..I am being hurt and not being loved..ah well..enough of complaining..won't do no good..be still my aching heart.."
hmm
let me give a scenario..
since apples and oranges seem to be the fashion, i'll use them again..
i love orange juice..and everytime there's a World Cup match, i'll drink it..
a friend of mine loves orange juice too, but doesnt have it at the moment..
wants it, but doesnt have it..
so,
do you think it is RIGHT to stop someone's WANTS, just because i have what my friend dearly WANTS...huh?
im in a rather pissed mood..cos i seriously was shocked...
and another thing..I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THE PEOPLE WHO HURT THE PEOPLE/PERSON I DEARLY LOVE AND CHERISH..MAIN EMPHASIS ON THE WORD NEVER...
well, toodles...
thursday
Today, was such a boring day..except for some nice moments.it was dullsville..
hmm, tried to come to school late, and failed miserably.lol..
mr pok's lesson was okay okay arh..was about silion..hehe, me and jeremy had some jibes bout that one..about how pamela anderson would score a distinction for this particular subject..haha..
then was MCFA..lol..luckily i was seated beside dear DD..if not i would have dozed off..lol
first we played tic tac toe...
then we played hangman..lol..Superman,Kaka..and eh, wats the other one arh DD? i forgot..kan ada 3 kan..haha..
then we played a game, "take a turn poetry"..last time when i had literature..my teacher would use this a lot..
anyway, the game is quite simple..we would each take turns writing a line of poetry..and whoever ends or starts will give the other a chance to start or end..lol..paham? tak paham sudah.hehe...we spent the whole lesson , thinking what rhymes with what and all that.suddenly the word "fart" came out...lol.
and in the end, it turned out very nicely you know.
but i didn't like the last part..hehe..too sad lah..
but a poem is also,
how you are feeling at that moment,
what is the content of your heart,
and a reflection of what you are thinking
DD..you are a good poet u know..and you are right..we do make a great team...til the next poem kay..lol..before this, i really didn't have the motivation to write..lol, so i guess proper motivation, and the proper person are key to a great poem..thank uuuuuu...
if you wish to see the poem..go to DD's blog k..if you dunno who DD is..DD is the person who sat beside me during MCFA..lol..guess lor..cannot guess..call Powergas kay..
till later..
Spain Jersey
lol....
this is what i want NOW!!!!!!!!
an original SPAIN JERSEY
with my fav no 6 and my name SHALIZ at the back....
haiz, i dun care if Spain is out..i just love the jersey
haiz
im very sad..y?
cos Spain lost..3-1..did u noe what?
when zinedine zidane scored the last goal..my eyes teared sia...
i have to admit, france played a good game..in the end, experience won out over youth..
DAMN!!!
to DD, right now for the moment, im supporting Brazil..coz i want them to kick France's ass..
still, in my heart, Viva Espana!!!
Sayang..sudah tu sudah, nangis tidak berlagu lagi.. Wednesday, June 28, 2006
crap
well, first of all.my soccer alleigance is to the one and only Spain..whose jersey is the only one which im gonna buy ori..hehe
secondly,CRAP!!!!!!
after a beautifully taken penalty kick taken by Spain's David Villa, which left french goalkeeper Fabien Barthez sprawling on the ground..(21min)
Spain unfortunately conceded a goal by Ribery, with an ugly (cut me some slack, im biased okay?) through pass by dunno who..dun care anyway.. (41min)
Go Spain!!
Go Torres,Garcia,Ramos,Alonso,Raul,Villa...go go go...
please let me go to school tomorrow, happy..even though im lacking of sleep..please..
woah
3-0... could have been 6-0, if Kingson was a spooner or butterfingers..hehehe..yet..he performed admirably..Chelsea!! buy him..lol..
now for the match that my heart may not be able to withstand..Spain Vs France..any friend of mine will know that i am a diehard Spain supporter..so..please pray for my team..lol..
DD?! later this year's world cup final want to go watch at a cinema? lol..then sok pagi gi sekolah.hahaha..
Marlon, i really like two lines that were in your blog.The first one was, " when things get closer to your heart, it gets heavier with expectations" and the "nice guys can be nasty"..can let me use them? lol, i trade you my "love is comfort, not awkwardness" line..lol..
but its true..
its ironic..im a firm believer in love, and all its ideals.and yet..when its my turn, i get hurt..i get dissapointed..
to JB..i wish u the best of luck..the chat we had, its in my head..slowly ya..if i do any mistakes, correct me..please..and WE REALLY are in the same situation..
to sue..7 days 7 nights huh? lol..with the way things are going..well..dun put hopes on that ya..cos even i dunno the state of my heart rite now..dah pecah, dipijak2 lagie..ah well, kalau dah ditakdirkan kan..aku redha..
"Amorephobia"..im gonna call it
tc guys..
my prediction..Spain 1-0 France
1st half
okay, the first half of Brazil vs Ghana..
lets put it this way..it wont make u sleep, like yesterday..
put my predictions out of whack..i was thinking of 2-0 at the end of the game..its just the 1st half sia..rolly-polly aka the flying fatty scored..lol..and adriano scored with a nice tap in..honestly, brazil's thru passes are freaking good..split the ghanian defence apart..
kudos to the ghanian spirit..haiz..in the face of overwhelming odds, they never gave up..unlike me..hahahaiz...
stay tuned to the 2nd half mates...dun freaking fall asleep
sorry jb
im so sorry..after what u told me..
im feeling sad..and hurt..
it always turns out this way..y?
am i not worthy of it?
im not gonna give up..thats for sure..
yet..its slipping thru my fingertips, it seems...
keep it a secret kay, between u and me..
stuck in a moment that wasnt meant to last...
that's me.. Saturday, June 24, 2006
to sue
To Suhaila, aka Sue
Happy Birthday ke 19th..lol..hope u like your presents kay..u dun get to be 19 again..so cheer up ya..mungkin dier tak kisah, tapi ramai lagi orang kisahkan kau tau..including me..
nanti aku doakan kau kay..agar tuhan akan slalu melindungimu kay, and ringankan beban mu..insya'allah..
Yours Sincerely,
Shah
P.S..in times of darkness u won't be alone k Sunday, June 11, 2006
Chalet
from June 6th to the 8th..i had the best time of my life..im not lying..or over-reacting..i sincerely had the best time of my life..
kay, on june the 6th..first of all, met sue at simei..after waiting for a while for her to get her stuff..we went to loyang point to meet up with salleh, wei zhong and chun mei for grocery shopping..hehe..also, some of the side errands we did were to, rent dvds, bought magazine..chit chatted..and listened to mp3 while waiting for fadhli, our dedicated chauffer (sorrie beb, main2 jek)..hehe..
so we took his car and off we went to the chalet..man, it was like..power ah..two storey..and filled with teens.haha..after putting all the food and stuff, we rested and waited for the rest to come..oh yah..we, as a class, had one room for ourselves..so fought for the bed arh..hehe..mcm nak pecah, so takut jgk.hehe
then my pals arrived..and off they went to rent bikes ( for pics go to my "home" ).hehe..i cudnt follow cos me, salleh and wz had to be "jamie olivers"..we cooked spaghetti tau..dun play play.
i think we did nicely..cos none of my frens puked their guts out..so yeah.haha..then at night the real fun began..
we cycled from the chalet to changi village..where we saw a lot of he-shes.hehe..never had been that proud of my gender in my life.wahahaha..then we went to...*gasp* Old Changi Hospital..
..to tell the truth..not that scary..but..i saw somethings, and heard lah..and DD also saw.P.S to tat asshole who thinks he's so macho by acting like dipstick..Screw You!.so yeah..after that we cycled to dunno where in the freaking early morning..never will i forget that bike trip..we played " i want"..i shared a bit of my soul..and i just got closer to my frens..and oh yah..my ass got tighter til i cudnt feel it anymore..and jonathans' pubic hair was open for all the world to see.wahaha
that was already june 7th..sooo when we reached home, had a shower and went to sleep, or tried to sleep..i dint want to tell my frens but..my injury was hurting like hell..so very much that i cudnt sleep..just cudnt..so i just rested and relaxed..
then DD fell sick..got kinda worried so went to downtown east and bought some breakfast.then went to white sands and bought some medicine..
at around 9plus when everybody was K.O, me, jon and zad had to return the bikes..if not..mati ah, the bill who want to handle..hehe..
soo, more or less everybody was awake at ard 12..the 02 guys went to play DOTA..DD went home for a while..me played Winning 11..syiok abis..Viva Espana!!
after that, i cudnt tahan animore so went inside our class bedroom to rest for a while and just tahan the pain..rabak sia..once the painkiller wore off..i was screwed..but still cudnt sleep..so tot of writing a poem for sumone cos that sumone was in pain and me wanted to let the sumone know that me cares..i don't haf the poem now, cos i made a point that the owner of the poem will haf the only copy..which was on tissue paper.hehehe..and btw, i mean every single word on my poems
so at around 5plus me,zad, lon,jb,su and lyn went to downtown east to jalan2 and buy sum stuff for the chalet..when we got back only did i realise we dint purchase the charcoal..duh!!!..so me and zad cepat2 back to DE..zad, kau turning jgn cepat sgt bleh tak..ingat cbr kepe? lol..
the bbq was underway at ard 7plus..me was the frycook while my other pals were the bbqooks.hehe..man, thanks to jialing and her chef bf..we had some tasty seafood..hmm..sedap!!
then at 10pm, we watched Incredible Tales..which ironically was about a group of teens going to a chalet..wooooooo..ironic huh.hehe
at 1030pm we had our movie marathon..where we watched "poltergeist"..was kinda shocked that other than me and jialing..no one else knew the show..its a classic u know..power ranger u know!..hehe..so the show ended at around 1230plus ( am mind u )..then we broke off, the dudes wanted to watch scary movie 4..so me and my class plus azrie retreated to our class bedroom..where we chit chatted for a while then slowly, one by one, we surrender..til left me and azrie.. i look at him, he look at me..geleng2 kepala.hahahaha..then finally, i went to tdo..but for only half an hour..it hurt so much.then i cudnt tahan and went out..played win 11 with salleh and WON!!..then played with zard and WON!!..soon, im going to beat JB and fadhli..tapi kena train 6 stars sak.haha..
that was around 7plus..so at 8 me went in the class room again to rest..and just slacked ah..at that time many of our mates woke up..so one by one we mandi ah..not together lah, of cos..
so after bathing, we waited for 945 to cum by playing tai ti..seriously lor, the cards are cursed.haha.
then we bade goodbye to the chalet and did our post chalet ritual..Watch MOVIE!!! shes the man at tamp mall..and eat LJS.haha..serious, last chalet oso we caught a movie there..so me,jb,jon,lon,candice and lyn watch..damn funny lor..amanda bynes is sooo hot.." do you er..like cheese?"..lol..
the saddest part was going home..separating..sad sia..i hope we can do it again..JB, DO ONE MORE CHALET AFTER EXAMS!!!!!
tc guys and gals, i love you..lol..to the gals of cos
eyy..its like, freaking 0304 am in the freaking morning..and what the heck am i doing?
well, just (honestly), just finished my MCFA report..while listening to Shayne's Ward, "No Promises"..for the uber-umpteenth time..tralalalalalalala...
i think now is a safe time to sleep, cos even owls like DD are already asleep..gdnite btw..lol..bwek!..
so, i can sleep without worrying that much.hahaha..good night, or issit good morning? ahh...its irrelevant..as long as aku ngorok tak berliur, da okie dah..hehehehehe
after going to friendster, my heart seems troubled...it is troubled..why did i have to let my old feelings resurface again?? can i not find peace in my heart? i don't think i can take it any longer..i always say that..but somehow i take it some more..and again.and again...a vicious cycle it seems..and im the victim..is love just a sick parody of pain? instead of being loved and not being hurt..I am being hurt and not being loved..ah well..enough of complaining..won't do no good..be still my aching heart.."
let me give a scenario..
since apples and oranges seem to be the fashion, i'll use them again..
i love orange juice..and everytime there's a World Cup match, i'll drink it..
a friend of mine loves orange juice too, but doesnt have it at the moment..
wants it, but doesnt have it..
so,
do you think it is RIGHT to stop someone's WANTS, just because i have what my friend dearly WANTS...huh?
im in a rather pissed mood..cos i seriously was shocked...
and another thing..I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THE PEOPLE WHO HURT THE PEOPLE/PERSON I DEARLY LOVE AND CHERISH..MAIN EMPHASIS ON THE WORD NEVER...
well, toodles...
Today, was such a boring day..except for some nice moments.it was dullsville..
hmm, tried to come to school late, and failed miserably.lol..
mr pok's lesson was okay okay arh..was about silion..hehe, me and jeremy had some jibes bout that one..about how pamela anderson would score a distinction for this particular subject..haha..
then was MCFA..lol..luckily i was seated beside dear DD..if not i would have dozed off..lol
first we played tic tac toe...
then we played hangman..lol..Superman,Kaka..and eh, wats the other one arh DD? i forgot..kan ada 3 kan..haha..
then we played a game, "take a turn poetry"..last time when i had literature..my teacher would use this a lot..
anyway, the game is quite simple..we would each take turns writing a line of poetry..and whoever ends or starts will give the other a chance to start or end..lol..paham? tak paham sudah.hehe...we spent the whole lesson , thinking what rhymes with what and all that.suddenly the word "fart" came out...lol.
and in the end, it turned out very nicely you know.
but i didn't like the last part..hehe..too sad lah..
but a poem is also,
how you are feeling at that moment,
what is the content of your heart,
and a reflection of what you are thinking
DD..you are a good poet u know..and you are right..we do make a great team...til the next poem kay..lol..before this, i really didn't have the motivation to write..lol, so i guess proper motivation, and the proper person are key to a great poem..thank uuuuuu...
if you wish to see the poem..go to DD's blog k..if you dunno who DD is..DD is the person who sat beside me during MCFA..lol..guess lor..cannot guess..call Powergas kay..
till later..
lol....
this is what i want NOW!!!!!!!!
an original SPAIN JERSEY
with my fav no 6 and my name SHALIZ at the back....
haiz, i dun care if Spain is out..i just love the jersey
im very sad..y?
cos Spain lost..3-1..did u noe what?
when zinedine zidane scored the last goal..my eyes teared sia...
i have to admit, france played a good game..in the end, experience won out over youth..
DAMN!!!
to DD, right now for the moment, im supporting Brazil..coz i want them to kick France's ass..
still, in my heart, Viva Espana!!!
Sayang..sudah tu sudah, nangis tidak berlagu lagi.. Wednesday, June 28, 2006
well, first of all.my soccer alleigance is to the one and only Spain..whose jersey is the only one which im gonna buy ori..hehe
secondly,CRAP!!!!!!
after a beautifully taken penalty kick taken by Spain's David Villa, which left french goalkeeper Fabien Barthez sprawling on the ground..(21min)
Spain unfortunately conceded a goal by Ribery, with an ugly (cut me some slack, im biased okay?) through pass by dunno who..dun care anyway.. (41min)
Go Spain!!
Go Torres,Garcia,Ramos,Alonso,Raul,Villa...go go go...
please let me go to school tomorrow, happy..even though im lacking of sleep..please..
3-0... could have been 6-0, if Kingson was a spooner or butterfingers..hehehe..yet..he performed admirably..Chelsea!! buy him..lol..
now for the match that my heart may not be able to withstand..Spain Vs France..any friend of mine will know that i am a diehard Spain supporter..so..please pray for my team..lol..
DD?! later this year's world cup final want to go watch at a cinema? lol..then sok pagi gi sekolah.hahaha..
Marlon, i really like two lines that were in your blog.The first one was, " when things get closer to your heart, it gets heavier with expectations" and the "nice guys can be nasty"..can let me use them? lol, i trade you my "love is comfort, not awkwardness" line..lol..
but its true..
its ironic..im a firm believer in love, and all its ideals.and yet..when its my turn, i get hurt..i get dissapointed..
to JB..i wish u the best of luck..the chat we had, its in my head..slowly ya..if i do any mistakes, correct me..please..and WE REALLY are in the same situation..
to sue..7 days 7 nights huh? lol..with the way things are going..well..dun put hopes on that ya..cos even i dunno the state of my heart rite now..dah pecah, dipijak2 lagie..ah well, kalau dah ditakdirkan kan..aku redha..
"Amorephobia"..im gonna call it
tc guys..
my prediction..Spain 1-0 France
okay, the first half of Brazil vs Ghana..
lets put it this way..it wont make u sleep, like yesterday..
put my predictions out of whack..i was thinking of 2-0 at the end of the game..its just the 1st half sia..rolly-polly aka the flying fatty scored..lol..and adriano scored with a nice tap in..honestly, brazil's thru passes are freaking good..split the ghanian defence apart..
kudos to the ghanian spirit..haiz..in the face of overwhelming odds, they never gave up..unlike me..hahahaiz...
stay tuned to the 2nd half mates...dun freaking fall asleep
im so sorry..after what u told me..
im feeling sad..and hurt..
it always turns out this way..y?
am i not worthy of it?
im not gonna give up..thats for sure..
yet..its slipping thru my fingertips, it seems...
keep it a secret kay, between u and me..
stuck in a moment that wasnt meant to last...
that's me.. Saturday, June 24, 2006
To Suhaila, aka Sue
Happy Birthday ke 19th..lol..hope u like your presents kay..u dun get to be 19 again..so cheer up ya..mungkin dier tak kisah, tapi ramai lagi orang kisahkan kau tau..including me..
nanti aku doakan kau kay..agar tuhan akan slalu melindungimu kay, and ringankan beban mu..insya'allah..
Yours Sincerely,
Shah
P.S..in times of darkness u won't be alone k Sunday, June 11, 2006
from June 6th to the 8th..i had the best time of my life..im not lying..or over-reacting..i sincerely had the best time of my life..
kay, on june the 6th..first of all, met sue at simei..after waiting for a while for her to get her stuff..we went to loyang point to meet up with salleh, wei zhong and chun mei for grocery shopping..hehe..also, some of the side errands we did were to, rent dvds, bought magazine..chit chatted..and listened to mp3 while waiting for fadhli, our dedicated chauffer (sorrie beb, main2 jek)..hehe..
so we took his car and off we went to the chalet..man, it was like..power ah..two storey..and filled with teens.haha..after putting all the food and stuff, we rested and waited for the rest to come..oh yah..we, as a class, had one room for ourselves..so fought for the bed arh..hehe..mcm nak pecah, so takut jgk.hehe
then my pals arrived..and off they went to rent bikes ( for pics go to my "home" ).hehe..i cudnt follow cos me, salleh and wz had to be "jamie olivers"..we cooked spaghetti tau..dun play play.
i think we did nicely..cos none of my frens puked their guts out..so yeah.haha..then at night the real fun began..
we cycled from the chalet to changi village..where we saw a lot of he-shes.hehe..never had been that proud of my gender in my life.wahahaha..then we went to...*gasp* Old Changi Hospital..
..to tell the truth..not that scary..but..i saw somethings, and heard lah..and DD also saw.P.S to tat asshole who thinks he's so macho by acting like dipstick..Screw You!.so yeah..after that we cycled to dunno where in the freaking early morning..never will i forget that bike trip..we played " i want"..i shared a bit of my soul..and i just got closer to my frens..and oh yah..my ass got tighter til i cudnt feel it anymore..and jonathans' pubic hair was open for all the world to see.wahaha
that was already june 7th..sooo when we reached home, had a shower and went to sleep, or tried to sleep..i dint want to tell my frens but..my injury was hurting like hell..so very much that i cudnt sleep..just cudnt..so i just rested and relaxed..
then DD fell sick..got kinda worried so went to downtown east and bought some breakfast.then went to white sands and bought some medicine..
at around 9plus when everybody was K.O, me, jon and zad had to return the bikes..if not..mati ah, the bill who want to handle..hehe..
soo, more or less everybody was awake at ard 12..the 02 guys went to play DOTA..DD went home for a while..me played Winning 11..syiok abis..Viva Espana!!
after that, i cudnt tahan animore so went inside our class bedroom to rest for a while and just tahan the pain..rabak sia..once the painkiller wore off..i was screwed..but still cudnt sleep..so tot of writing a poem for sumone cos that sumone was in pain and me wanted to let the sumone know that me cares..i don't haf the poem now, cos i made a point that the owner of the poem will haf the only copy..which was on tissue paper.hehehe..and btw, i mean every single word on my poems
so at around 5plus me,zad, lon,jb,su and lyn went to downtown east to jalan2 and buy sum stuff for the chalet..when we got back only did i realise we dint purchase the charcoal..duh!!!..so me and zad cepat2 back to DE..zad, kau turning jgn cepat sgt bleh tak..ingat cbr kepe? lol..
the bbq was underway at ard 7plus..me was the frycook while my other pals were the bbqooks.hehe..man, thanks to jialing and her chef bf..we had some tasty seafood..hmm..sedap!!
then at 10pm, we watched Incredible Tales..which ironically was about a group of teens going to a chalet..wooooooo..ironic huh.hehe
at 1030pm we had our movie marathon..where we watched "poltergeist"..was kinda shocked that other than me and jialing..no one else knew the show..its a classic u know..power ranger u know!..hehe..so the show ended at around 1230plus ( am mind u )..then we broke off, the dudes wanted to watch scary movie 4..so me and my class plus azrie retreated to our class bedroom..where we chit chatted for a while then slowly, one by one, we surrender..til left me and azrie.. i look at him, he look at me..geleng2 kepala.hahahaha..then finally, i went to tdo..but for only half an hour..it hurt so much.then i cudnt tahan and went out..played win 11 with salleh and WON!!..then played with zard and WON!!..soon, im going to beat JB and fadhli..tapi kena train 6 stars sak.haha..
that was around 7plus..so at 8 me went in the class room again to rest..and just slacked ah..at that time many of our mates woke up..so one by one we mandi ah..not together lah, of cos..
so after bathing, we waited for 945 to cum by playing tai ti..seriously lor, the cards are cursed.haha.
then we bade goodbye to the chalet and did our post chalet ritual..Watch MOVIE!!! shes the man at tamp mall..and eat LJS.haha..serious, last chalet oso we caught a movie there..so me,jb,jon,lon,candice and lyn watch..damn funny lor..amanda bynes is sooo hot.." do you er..like cheese?"..lol..
the saddest part was going home..separating..sad sia..i hope we can do it again..JB, DO ONE MORE CHALET AFTER EXAMS!!!!!
tc guys and gals, i love you..lol..to the gals of cos