Wednesday, January 25, 2006
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i wonder..when people laugh, does it really mean that they are very very happy, or are they just hiding their, well, less pleasant feelings, like sadness and pain..like laughter is a defense mechanism?

cos, i was tokking to a fren, and he seemed very happy, i mean, me and him were like laughing like crazy over small things..and really laughing..i mean, we were at mcdonalds imm, and people were looking at us, maybe thinking, " wat the hell are these two crazy fags doing..soooo annoying"..haha.. but then i noticed that he dint really seem himself..i mean, dun ask me how i noe, i just noe..maybe im empathic or sumthing?..lol..

then suddenly he told me that he just broke up with his gal last nite..

thats' why i asked this question...

for me..personally, i laugh when things are funny, and i also use laughter as a defense mechanism..i dun really like showing people that im weak ..that 'lil old me is having problems..lol..also, when im sad..i think a lot..

oh yeah..and FYI, im thinking a lot right now..
 Monday, January 23, 2006
awrite..
hey guys/gals..

first of all, this is a new blog skin, so there will be some empty holes i haven't plugged in yet..like the tagboard..hehehe,and stuff..but all in due time lah..kinda busy.

i had the best saturday in ages yesterday..

yesterday was the ccf ah..hmm..me and marlon planned to meet at jurong at around 935 liddat..haha..so when we reached there, we noticed that some of marlons' friends had already arrived and doing some stuff..

our task was to er..ouh yeah, man the booths and hand out flyers arh..me and lon made a game, whoever hands out the most flyers wins..unluckily i lost by 13 flyers..wah piang..

then he went in with fiona to see kelly poon..lolx..i went to eat snake also arh..hehe..by watching the folk dancing and tkd performances..i miss tkd and dancing..last time sec school arh..got so many dances, like squaredancing, waltz, tango..etc..

then heard from marlon that the people that were serving the drinks wanted to switch with the manning booth .i dint mind so i asked lon whether he wanted to switch..unfortunately we couldnt arh, the person in charge dint let us.. im very sorry..i wud have been most willing to change..seeing u in the hot sun and all..i wud haf gladly exchanged places so u dint haf to suffer like that..haiz

lol, then marlon had to leave at 135pm..due to his studies..and i had until 6pm haha..actually my duty was from 2 to 6..but desmond cudnt make it, and therefore i took his place in the morning shift..bloody tired sia..i think i fell sick, cos i was coughing like crazy..found it hard to breathe at some points..

then waited for jeremy to cum at 2..hehe..from 2plus to 6 we; handed out flyers, walked around, went to play badminton, slacked, took a break from slacking.looked at girls, made new friends, the 3rd year biomed girls were very cute and friendly..hehe.

personally, it was the best day that i cud ask for, cos..i cud see her smiling and being happy and stuff..i nearly wanted to talk to her..but was kinda afraid and didnt want to make things worse..i wanted to apologize for everything..but as long as shes' happy and laughing with her friends, i guess i can make do..i dun want to be a thorn in her side anymore..

" just wanna wish you good luck for the exams, good luck for itp also, hope u get the thailand thingy, cos i remembered how much u love thailand, tom yam, etc..haha..sincerely, wish you all the best"

....only heaven knows..and all i can do is hope and pray..cause heaven knows..

tomorrow ther's a soccer match, against ICT..pray for me kay? haha..Amin
 Saturday, January 14, 2006
wat a bad week
i hate this week! i tot that only friday the 13th was a bloody unlucky day, but i guessed that it was the whole bloody week..intensely unlucky..suey suey... i hate it..i dunno whether it is a coincidence or it is fate lar..and i dun care..but personally it has been a bad week...

p.s..on friday, im very sorry if they teased you...i accept responsibility.