Tuesday, December 06, 2005
its rough
it's rough.. i dunno how i can handle it anymore, but it's rough.. i dunno what to believe anymore.. i dunno what to feel, i dunno how to feel, i dunno how to cope, i dunno how to face people.. i dunno..

my heart is aching..but it's ironic..after all ive been thru, it surprising that i can still feel pain..i tot i lost it already.. hmm, in 2 years.. my ego is gone..self belief thrown out of the window, confidence shattered..happiness is controlled not by me..hope is gone..dihina, di maki, dikeji..

and yet i dun feel angry..cos i deserved all of it..aku pasrah, aku redha..my life, my problems, my pain..and no one elses'..

hey marlon, thanks bro for your support..i dunno wat elso to do now..watever happens, i'll just accept it any way i can..